Your a Bitch!

You are always trying to pit me against someone else. You sit there and say you are not judgemnetal but yet you are more judgemental then him. How can you do this? YOu know i love them and how can you say what you said. But oh well. I'll let you just throw your bitch fit and let you think you're right. Even if you are not. Oh well what can i say. Thats you and you don't want to change and i can do nothing to change it. YOu are who you are and i am who i am. Let bigons be bigones.

gone

Your gone
The one who never judged me
Who never thought I was an idiot
Who just loved me for me
Never again can your brown eyes make me smile
Or comfort me when tears sream from my eyes
Your gone
And thats thats
So why can't I let you go?

How?

Stupid water is what the Native Americans called it. Maybe they were right. Alcohol causes people to talk stupidly and truthfully. But how do you know which is which? Coming home and yelling at the two people who never judge you, yelling that they are ungrateful, saying you won't help, thinking it's your younger sisters job to make sure you eat. That's when it is stupid water. I understand people drinking socially or just a beer or glass of whine with dinner but to drink so much that you hurt those you claim to love is too much. That's when it is stupid water. To get so drunk that you act daftly, that you speak without knowing is wrong. Why would you drink that much? Theres no need for it. All it does is cause pain to you and those you love. You want to protect us but yet you can hurt us worse of all. When tears come from words that you have said they literally burn my face while they roll down my cheeks. You have no idea that you do this. How can I tell you? In your eyes their is no problem, you do not speak words like that.

WOW!

It's realy annoying when your dad doesn't act like a dad but more like a childish fool. When he thinks that when ever someone in the house has something he wants he  is just intitled to it. He hasnt done shit for me except be there finacially and break me down emotionaly. Yet there is nothing i can do to make any diffrence about it. He is a incoiderate ass. He finds nothing wrong with himself but yet he can find all the faults in his children and his wife. He is the kind of person i never want to be. Yet i am fearfull that i will be like him because sometimes we become so focused on not being like someone that we become them. The only thing now that i can do is hope and pray to be me not my dad, not my mom, not my brother, just me. I think thats enough and if other people don't then they can suck a toe. I am who i am. Over time that will change just like it does with everyone and hopefully those changes will be for the better.