So I really don't know what to talk about. Theres so many things swimming around in my head that i  cant focus. Have you ever had that happen to you? It sucks, huh. Oh well. I just can't wait for my brother to get home. Right now he's a officer training school. He's the one who i talk to for advice. And Thanks Angela for what you said. It means alot to know someones listening. I guess that's what were all her for, huh. And your probably right about my thoughts being scarier than  reality. it would make more sense.